It's hard to read this kind of stuff, Dani. I worry about you, so much. It's a cycle around and around, and thank God that you haven't gotten pregnant, yet.

I don't mean to be cruel or hateful. But how could you support a baby? You don't even have a job, and the jobs you do get, won't support a baby. PLEASE go to school, trade school, something to get you into an office job, or something! 

I'm just speaking from experience. Once that baby is here, you will not be able to do these things, as easily. Everything is harder with a kid. It's like living with parents again. You have someone to answer to 24/7. And yes, they're sweet and you love them, and they bring you joy. But it's hard to enjoy your baby, when you can't find a way to feed them, and yourself. And you're living with whoever will let you live with them. And boys aren't so mushy and romantic, when you never give it up anymore, because you're exhausted all the time, from working and taking care of a kid.

I hope that you either listen to me, or prove me way wrong. I don't want you to be unhappy.

You avoid anything that could get you into trouble or delays your time at job corps. You've gotta wrap it up and get outta there girl.

[waytoomuchtime]

Sounds like all kinds of drama. I spaced your letter! Sorry. I've been so busy lately, I'm doing good to remember my own name. I'll send it tommorow!

Take Care! Glad to hear from you!

Jeff is just REALLY REALLY hurt. He was trying to say something that would hurt you as much as you hurt him. What you did was mean, sweety. I hate to say that, but you need to know. You're playing with someone's feelings and you can't do that.

I hope that this trip home gives you a chance to clear your head and think about things.

I'm going to be very very blunt with you, because I know you need to hear it and because I care about you. But I am sorry, in advance, if I hurt your feelings. That's not at all what I want...

You have to stop letting boys control you. The minute one of these boys pays attention to you, you lose your head and risk everything for their affection and attention.

I recognize it, because I was the same way. It's got a lot to do with feeling abandoned, and wanting nothing more than just to feel like someone loves your forever and is never going to leave you.

Unfortunately, these boys aren't ready for that anymore than you are. And none of you are going to be emotionally ready commit, not even if you have a baby together.

My Husband and I were a mess for the first 5 years of my Daughters life. We were fussing and fighting kids that acted like we were 17/18/19 so on... the only thing that changed was that an innocent little girl was thrown into the middle of it. That wasn't fair.

It's taken me a long time. And I even cheated on my Husband 5 years ago. I almost lost him. I had to learn that what I was looking for didn't come from a man or a woman. Not from my Husband, or my Mom, or anyone else. It had to come from me. I have to love myself, or I will be owned by anyone who I think can fill that void for me. I've also tried filling it with drugs and alcohol. That doesn't do it, either.

I just want so much to save you from every hurt and heartache that is out there. But I want you to know one more thing...

All of the mistakes that you have made and continue to make, make you who you are. And you are a very good person. I don't expect you to do everything I say, because I know I wouldn't have done everything that I say. But, at least take it into consideration. Try to see if you find any truth in it.

[waytoomuchtime]

Hey! I got your letter! I have to work that overnight, tonight, so I will work on your letter.

I was thinking about your phone, and I had one more suggestion, do you have money built up, that you have earned? If so, maybe your Mom could help you fill out some kind of request to withdraw part of that money, so you could keep your phone? Is that possible?

Have a great weekend!

Well that sucks. I'm sorry. I can't believe you're not allowed to make more than that.

Good luck getting things straightened out.

Can you work outside of doing your Job Corps? Can you earn money through Job Corps?

If not, I would have to ask... Do you need a phone that badly? I would live without it. But I don't know your situation, as far as that goes.

I didn't get your letter, today. Hopefully Tommorow.

And I am so not perfect. But thanks for the vote of confidence. I'm glad you care about me, and if I'm happy or sad. That is very sweet. But what makes me happy is for you to be happy. That helps bring me back up!

Have a good weekend.

oh....ok.... i didnt know that.....

Good luck when yu do take the test!!!

Her middle name is Elizabeth and her last name is the same as mine. Her first name is actually Lillianna (I had two Great-Grandmother's Lilly and Anna Elizabeth, so her name is Lillianna Elizabeth) we prounounce it Lilly-a-na though, not anna.

I hope your not pregnant, babe. I can't help it. Not that I don't think that you will be a wonderful mother some day, I'd just like to see you have more time to get your life in order, first. But you're right, if you are it will be okay. It's always okay in the end. But I'd like to see life be better than okay for you.

I can't wait to get your letter. I've started working on yours, too.

lol.. that lil boyy crackz mee upp!!
n im glad u enjoyed ur weekend!!

[LiLOne14]

Okay, it is kind of weird that she is so worried, but she turns her phone off, and goes to bed. She might just be a head case.

There is definately a line between letting your kids run wild, and being a head case. It's hard to walk that line as a parent.

I will look forward to your letter, and as I said, I will write you, asap.

Have a good day, sweetie!

I was in Boise and Meridian 3 months ago. It was brief but I loved it! We went to see if we wanted to move there, but my dh is wishy washy. But on the other hand, jobs are hard to come by, and I have good insurance(benefits) Would love to live is a nice area like yours.

You seem like a comical person. We are friends now. Today is a snow day and no work! Weeeeeeeeeeeee!

I feel you! On my job, I help with every subject but math. Gooddddddd grief Charlie Brown!!! Hope health appt is good!

I think you need to think about YOU, right now. You need to plan for the BEST possible future for YOURSELF. If it's meant to be with Page, then things will work out. If not, then you will find someone else who will make you forget all about him.

In order to get the most out of love, you have to the most YOU can be. You have to be happy with who you are and what you are doing with your life. You are 17, right? You need to get your act together and decide on a realistic career for yourself that you enjoy and start working on it.

Love will happen all on it's own, and the more happy and at peace you are with yourself, the more amazing happy people you will attract. I know this for a fact.

I got you pictures and you are as bright and beautiful in your pictures as you seem in your words. Find you inner strength, babe. You have a "light" and you need to learn to harness it and use it to your advantage. You DON'T need a boy to point it out to you, you need to KNOW it is there, all by yourself.

I love you, and I will support you and continue to give you my advice no matter what you choose to do.  

I've never heard of Cricket. Is it prepay or, I guess, obviously not, since your concern is paying for a phone that you can't use.

I'll keep an "ear" out for anyone who might have a phone, for you. Good luck!

Aww... I am crying a river and I just finished putting my makeup on. LOL.

You mean so much to me, too. This is really the most wonderful surprise in the world. I want you to know that every word I say to you is the honest to God truth, to the best of my knowlege/ability. That's the thing that girls like us need most. We don't respect anything less. :)

I would love to keep in touch with you, for as long as possible.

All My Love,

Melissa

I'm not mad at you. I just love you and I want you to be really happy. Happy in a way that comes from inside of you, rather from the attention of a boy. NOW don't get mad at me. I don't say that to make you feel bad or bad about yourself. I know your young, and wild! And I adore that about you.

But, I care about you, so when I think of you going down the kind of bumpy road that I started down, it scares me. It reminds me of me, and feeling hurt, and I don't want you to hurt.

I see the brilliant, bold, amazing young woman that you are, and I don't want anyone to damage that.  You don't need any boy to tell you that. You should know it all by yourself.

That doesn't mean that I think you should stop running around having your crazy week long love affairs. It's who you are and it's charming just everything else about you! Just find a deeper you, and don't define yourself by that behavior, or the things that go on in those relationships.

Do you still love me? Am a sticking my nose in too deep?  

Girl... what are we going to do with you? Is there an all girl's school you could be transferred to?

Stay with Jeff, stay away from Page. Don't let yourself be distracted so easily. You have boy ADD.

1.) How old were you? 9
2.) Where did you go to school? John Barry Elementry School
3.) Where did you work? I didnt
4.) Where did you live? Connecticut
5.) Where did you hang out? I didnt
6.) Did you wear glasses? No
7.) Who was your best friend? Gisella
8.) How many tattoos did you have? I didnt
9.) How many piercings did you have? None
10.) Did you drive a car? Of course not
11.) Had you been to a real party? Nope
12.) Had you had your heart broken? No
13.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorce? Single
14.) Any Kids? Hell no
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4 years ago..... January 2004

1.) How old were you? 13
2.) Where did you go to school? Washington Middle School
3.) Where did you work? Still didnt
4.) Where did you live? Connecticut
6.) Did you wear glasses? Nope
7.) Who were your best friend(s)? I didnt had one then, for some reason i really cant remember 
8.) How many tattoos did you have? None
9.) How many piercings did you have? Ear lobes
10) What car did you drive? Nah
11) Had your heart broken? No
12.) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Single
13.) Any Kids? Still a hell no
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Today....January 2008

1.) How old are you? 17
2.) Where do you work? Still dont work unfortunatly
3. where do you live? Bronx, New York
4.) Do you wear glasses? No
5.) Do you talk to your old friends? A couple from Ct
6) How many piercing do you have? Lobes, cartilage, tragus, 2 industrials = 9 individual wholes.
7) How many tattoos? None
8) What kind of car do you have? Nope, i have my permit though
9) Had you been in any relationships? Yes
10) Single/Taken/Married/Divorced? Single
11.)Any Kids? Yet again, another hell no

This is a very well written, well stated entry.

And like you, I feel for all of the victims of this tragedy. The shooter and his family included. It's just so sad that things like this go on.

Your smart enough to know that your own feelings. Trust yourself.

Hopefully you will get moved soon.

& Awwww, Jeff is such a sweety.

I'm 12,and read my new entry!
-Me!-

[greeneyedblonde95]

Sorry that you can't get moved, right now. I'm glad things are going good with Jeff.

WeLL Firstt Off.. I Jus Wanna Tell you thatt Im jus glad that u and Page didnt have a baby.. because of course ur nott with him anymore!.. *&* itz good that u caught on to the fact that he's been trreatin u liike sh*t.. no1 deservez that!..*&* yahhh it iz pretty fast to have another boyfriend.. buhh iff u really think about it. it doesnt really matter!.. right!!?.. (lol) ..as long as ur happppy!..
as for u and jess fightin!.. (lol).. thas funny!.. but good thing u guys r good now!

and haha!!.. SEX AT 6:15 AM = FABULOUS! ...totally AGREEEEE!!

Love alwayz
*Deee*

[LiLOne14]

Sorry i didnt see the comment about Juno. I liked the movie it was really good. Some movies dont load for some computers, it was slow for my lap top so i let it load while i did other things on it.

Aww that is so cute. He obviously likes you. (:

Lol!!..
wow..  yahh maybee she waz jus shockked.. n nott use to his head..
buhh wow i guess she didnt have to sayy NO HE DOESNT (look jus fiine)..
thas mean!!..
buhh so u had a crush on her??..
did she have a crush on u too??..
n omg*.. i jus hate when u text ppl n ur haven a conversation.. n apparently they dont liike sumtin u sayy.. so they never text back.. wtf*.. who duz that shyttt!!..thas dumb!.. lol!

[LiLOne14]

I dont giv my email out...il just...take ur word den

nah it snds lyk a gd laff actually. am glad u n ur boyfriend are back together. am still single unsurprisingly yet its still confussing lol.

x x x x

serch "FAT CELEB" on google images and the fat Brad Pitt is my exhibit...

in addition...caves are the most gorjus things ever...they are luvly abd thy are still classed as curves since they curve inside.

P.S i think its highly impossible 4 a fat person 2 have a flat stomach...unless u mean the flab is flat?   

weve been 2gether since december 7th     we live near dayton in ohio

[TIroxOUTinMBurg2013]

No, that was all real. I am crazy like that.

ERM...

No offense but yes u r fat. A bmi of 21 is HUGE...so anyfin past that is big...well dats my opinion.

The Facts...anything from Bmi 24.9 and above is classed as overweight, and urs is 23.5 which means ur nearing that stage. Good luck 2 u wen u become obese, may God be with you.

In addition...anything/anyone that has flab, wobbles and jiggles about can NEVER be beautiful because a beatutiful face is one that doesn't have 50 chins and a flabby turkey neck. So stop stikin up 4 fat people...its a known thing FAT=UGLY thin=beautiful

P.S Anorexic is spelt with 1 "n" not 2.

[FatFifi]

Thanks for the comment. :) Yeah, things with Rosa are rather tough...

No, I don't have an accent actually. Some people say that I have a small one, but I have that in both language, it's more my weird way of pronouncing things than anything. Olga's a really common name actually, and yeah Russian girls can be fairly temperamental.

ohhh ryt kk. i get wot sort of thing u meen now. x x x x

[hopeless14691]

well jobs goin well... pay rise the other month. u got 1?

family life is better thn its bin in ages... me n ma mum r strtin to get on better. u?

sorry to burst ur bubble bt i have a big ass... bootielicious lol

x x x x

hiya

long time no speak. yeah it was great fun. apart frm a put on weight this week lol.. clearly due to th weekend n th vast ammount of alchol tht was drunk lol. this is wen im quite glad im not anorexic.. i wud have had a nervous break dwn by nw. u have a good weekend? i take it u decided not to transfer then. oooeeeooo th pitter patter of tiny feet. wait till you have a decent job btw. me n ma friend wer checkin our financial status.. we cnt even afford r own flat between 3 of us. unless we go council stly bt a dnt wna do th rules so ohh well looks like wer stayin at home atm. x x x x

[hopeless14691]

I'm 27 and I just had my first baby. I think this was the perfect time for me. I was married for 5 years prior.

Here is what I would consider:

* I don't know how long you've been dating, but once you have a baby, it's difficult to have "you two" time and "you alone" time too. You need to be solid in your relationship, a baby can rock the boat...

* Do you think it's a red flag that your boyfriend changed his mind from "no children ever" to "I want to be a dad"? Make sure he won't change his mind again, that it's not just a spur of the moment and that he does have the "daddy gene". Have you seen him around babies and children?

*Do you know the demands of a baby? Have YOU been around babies and children? Are you ready to be a mom 24/7?

* Are you financially stable? A baby costs a lot of money. I got almost everything I have 2nd hand and that was a blessing, but there are also medical bills (yours and the baby's), and diapers and formula (if you don't breastfeed) are pricey... Every spare dime you have will have to be for the baby -no more trips to the mall or saturday night movie. Unless you're wealthy, this is what it's going to be like.

Age does not matter if you know what you're getting into. Some people are ready to start a family very young, some prefer to wait. I would talk to other people though, maybe people who have kids... Why does your boyfriend want to keep it a secret?? Don't let him pressure you into this!

Hope you make the right decision!

[Folle Avoine]

Everyone seems to love this woman. Hmmm....interesting.